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I can't really remember the last time I've actually been on this site tbh. It's been probably a year at least.

I have no idea whether or not I'm going to come back once in a while to update this dead account or to let it rot until whenever.

You see the only reason I only logged in today and decided to write something is, because I received an e-mail about someone trying to reset my password. (It's pretty obvious to me that it wasn't me so I was a little bit surprised by that.) In the end, thanks to that e-mail, I got curious and logged in after what seemed like forever in my opinion. I wouldn't even be surprised if my last check up was 1 or 2 years ago... Idk

To cut to the chase, a lot has happened in those years. It's pretty obvious it did, but that doesn't mean it wasn't at all overwhelming. I'm currently in my final year of high school and looking forward to going to college, I got my first tattoo this year, went to multiple concerts, fell in love and out of it again, learned more about my gender identity, found out about my learning disability and mental disability and last but not least gained and lost friends.

On the topic of friends, I think I equally gained and lost a lot in the years that I've been absent. The main reason why I've lost so many is not because of arguments or misunderstandings (or better yet finding out how nasty people can be), but mainly losing contact. I've always been bad at replying to others, and over the years it has taken it's toll. This website is a good example of that, Even though I never had a huge friend group on here I always had 2 or 3 people I could talk to who I considered good friends. Thanks to me, not being good at replying, those friendships vanished. To be honest, I regret that the most about leaving this website behind. I miss the fun conversations I used to have and I regret not keeping any contact. (So if your reading this, I'm sorry about that...)

Looking at this account does hit me with a surge of pain (or sadness idk..), because of losing friends. But also because it reminds me of the passion I used to have for drawing. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy it a lot. It's just that I used to be so passionate about going to an art college and creating a web comic, that looking at this account makes me sad how that passion has faded so much over the years. The fading activity on this account might be a sort of symbol for that hehe 😜

I'm going to abruptly stop this post, because I have no idea what to write atm and I'm probably going to cringe in the morning at how I formulated my sentences. Even though this post was pretty sad, I just felt like saying goodbye and this post (even though it's not finished yet) felt like the right thing to do just that.

I don't know if I'm ever going to update this account. Maybe once in a while I'll post an update on some character design I made or just fun doodles I made while going to school. Idk yet...

If you read this I want to thank you for going all through this awful post. I don't really think anyone is going to read this so I really appreciate it if you did.

Goodbye,

Alex ( a.k.a. HologramPanda/Lunethis)

Ps. I wrote this on my phone, so I'm sorry if it's terribly written. I made this out of nowhere and didn't proof read it yet.

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a1993 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2015
wait, were you the person who did the visual maid novel that was never finished?
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HologramPanda Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2015
I saw your message on tumblr so here I am! 

I was the person who made the continuation on the visual maid novel. Just like the original I failed to finish it. I'm also not planning on continueing it, because I'm terrible at writing... 
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a1993 Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2015
there was a continuation? Did not even know, I don't think your a bad writer i think it would be interesting to give it a shot
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HologramPanda Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2015
The original one was made by someone else. It was made in flash and had an actual map (which was pretty nice). It never got finished because it was only a drabble. The one I made was a new one based off of that one, because I really wanted to see the finished version. (I made that one with renpy, a visual novel creator)

I might give it a shot again one day, but currently I'm keeping it on hold because: 1. I'm not as obsessed with touhout as I used to be, 2. The original file is lost so I have to start all over from scratch. And I'm a pretty lazy and busy gal who has a lot of other things to do atm. 

And last but not least, the game format. Even if I were to continue right now I would probably stop using ren'py, as there were too many bugs, and move onto a different gaming format. For example rpg maker. But that really depends tho... 

That's it. I really have no idea if I'll ever finish this project. Considering its age and problems, probably not. So not to be rude but please don't get your hopes up for it. It's probably not even worth it... 
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theresahelmer Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2014  Professional Photographer
Thank you so much for adding me to your watch list, i am utterly flattered :heart: ~Theresa
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abnormalDre Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
happy birthday ^-^
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HologramPanda Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
ohh! Thank you!
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abnormalDre Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
anytime ^-^
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EkoGlitch Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013
Merry Christmas to you too. :3
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HologramPanda Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013
:D

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